Subbing and separation anxiety

I knew that I would have crazy stories to tell from substitute teaching, but I didn't think they would be quite THIS crazy. Today was my first day, and I ended up in a special ed classroom with five teachers aides and seven students. The students were very low functioning, but the teachers weren't trying to accomplish much with them today, so we did a lot of talking while the students sat quietly, played, or watched movies. (I would have been horrified at how little teaching happened today if the students hadn't been SO low functioning. It felt more like daycare than school).

Anyways, there was another sub there besides me, and while we were talking she told me that last month she had been texting with her boyfriend while he was riding his bike (I don't even know how you would text while riding a bike, but maybe I'm just not coordinated enough!)... when he got in an accident and died. What?! Imagine the guilt from knowing that you helped cause someone's death. But she couldn't attend his memorial service because she had already booked a cruise (her "divorce party", she called it). And while she was in the airport on her way to her cruise, she met another guy - who she is now dating. She claims to be Mormon/Jewish (yes, both)... and she has teenage daughters. What are her daughters learning from all of this?! I heard some crazy stories in YoungLives, but not like this... or maybe I was just used to their style of "crazy". It just is almost unbelievable the lives that other people are living - while I am focused on my comparably tiny worries and living a comparably very enviable life.

So with that, back to my life. :-) By now you may have heard that we are expecting Baby #2 in mid-June. No morning sickness, but lots of sleepiness. Bethany dutifully kisses my belly when we tell her to kiss the baby - that's "faith like a child" for you! Needless to say, we are very excited to have a new little one joining our family.

I am going to try to sub between 1 1/2 and 2 days a week, which will be hard for me. Bethany had a hard time having me gone all day today - Todd said she asked about me a lot, and he kept having to distract her. Between sleeping in and napping, she really was only consciously away from me for about five hours, but that feels like a lot. To me. Yes, Bethany is not the only one with separation anxiety! I have it, too! I'm her mommy, and I want to be with her. Even though I do sometimes get a little bored trying to keep her entertained with "This little piggy", reading the same books over and over, and building/knocking over towers, I still want to be the full-time mommy! After today, I am totally impressed with you working moms! (Not that I wasn't already ;-). I'm just thankful that my schedule is so flexible and that I'll only be working a couple days a week.

And I have a request for those of you who made it to the end of this post... or those of you who skipped down to the end. Please leave a comment! I feel like I am writing to a crowd of blank faces. I often get comments on it, or someone will know something about my life that they could have only known from this blog, so I know you're reading this! So speak up and don't be a stalker. ;-)